My Chunka Offa Baba

Baby Christian weighs 17 lbs. and is 23 inches long.
Yes. MY BABY, who is just SEVEN WEEKS OLD, weighs 17 lbs.
I was expecting MAYBE 13, 14...but I was off. I guess it makes sense though...he's got the most adorable plethora of rolls after rolls!! (:

We went to my six week follow up appointment yesterday, and one of the assistant midwives and I were talking about my schooling and how I feel like I should switch to the Midwives College of Utah. She told me about the new option of Financial Aid through the school...and I really feel like I should make that my next move in my pursuing a career in midwifery. The desire to be a midwife is so strong, and in some ways, it feels like a calling.

So, on the schedule for today...switch out all my baby's Newborn to 3 month old clothes for the 6 month clothes (sooo sad! My baby isn't so little anymore!), cuddle the crap out of my boys before they get EVEN BIGGER, and apply for some financial aid. (:

What's all this Construction Business??

Alrighty, ladies and gents. If you've tried to check out all the above pages, most of them say "Under Construction," and let me explain why.

It's December. It's a crazy busy month. Last week, I said goodbye to my dear, sweet friend for 18 months as she goes to live in Russia, I braved a major snow storm and went to a photo shoot that's to be featured in a magazine, went to ANOTHER photo shoot for a boudoir session in which I did hair and makeup...and the entire week, I've been trying to keep up with my babies who have little colds and Christmas (and all the crafts that come along with it), which is approaching really, really, REALLY fast.

In about a month, all the pages will be complete. I just need a little time to get all this Holiday-Hobnosh outta the way.

I'm going to have recipes, crafts, married-stuff, and kiddo-stuff all up there. I'm also going to have links to my Freelance hair and makeup business and my birth services. It'll be great. Just...stay tuned. I promise it'll be worth it. (:

Where I Stand

Welp...the last time I posted was back in March...and A LOT has happened. This following part is from a post I had started back in June...and it gives a little bit of an update...

"My announcement that I had been leading up to came out about 8 weeks ago. James Ezra, now 10 months old, will be a big brother to another little Neal come November. I'll admit that the timing was not exactly what my husband and I had hoped for, but now, more than ever, I KNOW that things are supposed to be the way they are. Initially, finding out, I was filled with so many emotions that I didn't understand, that I didn't feel should be involved in finding out one is expecting. I was worried, anxious, and unsure of Heavenly Father's plan and if I could REALLY handle this. But now, as I'm a little over half way done with this pregnancy, I am excited and feel so much love for this baby. As I'm typing this, the sweet little baby is turning over and over and occasionally, there's a little part of my tummy that will move around as the baby moves within it. I feel blessed. I feel like I'm doing what I am meant to do by being a mother to not only one gorgeous little person, but two. I can't wait to meet him/her. (:

Two days ago, James Ezra was blessed! His grandpa, my dad, performed the blessing and although I don't want to go into details over the internet, I'll just say that he received a very special blessing and I am so grateful to be a member of this church." (:

The biggest and most important thing since then? Baby Christian was born. (: He's gorgeous, sweet, tender, wise...perfect. He decided to come 11 days early and has shown me from that (and his quick, natural labor/birth) that he does things on his own time. He's such a blessing to us and has made my small family of three a fun family size of four. James loves him...which is a huge bonus! He looooves giving him kisses and loves...so precious!! Adam's going to be getting into the Air Force Reserves! We have a few things to accomplish as a family first, but he's on his way to his dream of Para-rescue. I've gotten more involved in the Natural Birth world with my doula-ing and Placenta encapsulate-ing. I've started up Heavensent Birth Services and will dedicate more of my time to that once my little bambino is a little bit older. I've been working as a Freelance Hair and Makeup artist for photo shoots and such, and it's been a blast. I've happily named that part of my life Fleur de Beaute, and things are working out really well for it. Photo shoot tomorrow, actually (and one on Friday!) I've been challenging myself this year to do a Home Made christmas, and so far so good! I made a necklace today along with hand painted mugs, and a diaper cake, all while tending to my little men! (: I'll post pictures a little later, savvy? All in all, we're happy. Crossing my fingers that I'll be able to post more frequently!

Busy as a Bumbler..

It's been a few week since I've blogged. Three posts into this, and I'm already loosing motivation. (Sighs..) I so want to talk about my top-secret announcement, but I have to keep it under wraps for a little while longer. I'm going to start a few new blogging posts, so when I publish this into a physical copy, my future posterity will read it and go, "Oh mother. You silly mom."

I decided I am going to write out...and publish, on here...several things crucial to understand me and where I stand with my family. I'm going to write out James' birth story (and all the details entitled to a birth story), how my husband and I met, what influenced my decisions to be a midwife and a self-proclaimed "crunchy mama," and, in addition to all of that, I'm going to start writing letters on here to my son (refer to above paragraph for a lead-in to that sentence). I'm excited to finally write everything down here. I think I'll even entice my dear Adam to be a guest blogger so we can get the FULL effect. It'll be lovely.

James is asleep, but his little turnings and tossings are indicating that he is going to wake up soon. More to come in the morning. (:

Oh, the thinks you can think!

I've been trying so hard to fall asleep for the last little while, but my mind is consumed with just about every possible thought I could have. First of all. I've learned a big lesson on forgiveness in the last two years. It all started with a best friend who I loved dearly. One thing led to another, and we became bitter enemies. Other people's lies fueled the fire, and now, we're trying to mend a very damaged relationship. I realized a few weeks ago that I had an opportunity to forgo the hatred and anger towards her well over a year ago, and that realization hurts. All this time, we could've been friends and I could've had her support through a pretty rough time in my life. THAT realization hurts even worse. And during the entire fiasco, I never once stopped to fully comprehend that the situation wasn't just hurting me...it was hurting her too. Filled with regret, but super hopeful for what future we might have as friends again.

On a much, much lighter topic... Another thing that's calling my attention and keeping me awake is my HUGE GINORMOUS EXCITING announcement. I'm consumed by it! My husband and I are just trying to get the timing down as to when to let the world know. I'm excited to blog about all these great changes. (:

Another thing that's kept me awake? My little man. James decided to have a bed time at 8:00 tonight, which is fine. The problem is he also decided that he wanted to be wide awake half hour later. I've been struggling with a routine to get him sleeping earlier at night, but he definitely has his own ideas...which is so James. He's had his own ideas from the day he decided he wanted to come earth-side. And I'm thinking that I'll have a fun day tomorrow with my bambino! I'm wanting to bake. I've been craving Rosemary Lemon Cookies (tutorial, anyone?) and tomorrow would be the perfect time to bake them! Overall, I'm just in a really thinky mood. We'll see how long it lasts...putting away the laptop MIGHT influence sleep to come faster. Signing off. (:

Opening a New Book

My life is crazy. It's hectic. I'm always busy with one thing or another. But my life? I love it. I wouldn't change one single day of it. I have the best best-friend of a husband who is absolutely my better half, a darling little man who just turned 7 months young on the 26th of February (did I mention he's darling?), I am completely passionate about my schooling to become a Midwife (I love LOVE L O V E it!)and in total honesty, my life is getting better and better. Blogging just seems like the perfect way to share all these little things with family and loved ones.

I've had quite the history with blogging...I tend to start one then stop it after four posts EXACTLY. I think it's some type of OCD that I am determined to overcome through this blog.

So, in addition to starting a blog to share daily experiences with family, my little family of 3 has some BIG changes coming our way. We aren't starting to read another chapter--we're opening an entirely new book and we're reading it together. We have some big announcements to make that are going to be bringing some pretty major changes to our family, and I'm going to document every minute of it (well, the minutes that I'm not chasing little James around or catching up on a chapter in my midwifery textbooks or cooking or cleaning...). We're excited and overwhelmed all at the same time, but we're feeling pretty positive about our adventure that we call "life." So, stay tuned as I ramble on and share what it's like to be a super average super mom. (: