Busy as a Bumbler..

It's been a few week since I've blogged. Three posts into this, and I'm already loosing motivation. (Sighs..) I so want to talk about my top-secret announcement, but I have to keep it under wraps for a little while longer. I'm going to start a few new blogging posts, so when I publish this into a physical copy, my future posterity will read it and go, "Oh mother. You silly mom."

I decided I am going to write out...and publish, on here...several things crucial to understand me and where I stand with my family. I'm going to write out James' birth story (and all the details entitled to a birth story), how my husband and I met, what influenced my decisions to be a midwife and a self-proclaimed "crunchy mama," and, in addition to all of that, I'm going to start writing letters on here to my son (refer to above paragraph for a lead-in to that sentence). I'm excited to finally write everything down here. I think I'll even entice my dear Adam to be a guest blogger so we can get the FULL effect. It'll be lovely.

James is asleep, but his little turnings and tossings are indicating that he is going to wake up soon. More to come in the morning. (:

Oh, the thinks you can think!

I've been trying so hard to fall asleep for the last little while, but my mind is consumed with just about every possible thought I could have. First of all. I've learned a big lesson on forgiveness in the last two years. It all started with a best friend who I loved dearly. One thing led to another, and we became bitter enemies. Other people's lies fueled the fire, and now, we're trying to mend a very damaged relationship. I realized a few weeks ago that I had an opportunity to forgo the hatred and anger towards her well over a year ago, and that realization hurts. All this time, we could've been friends and I could've had her support through a pretty rough time in my life. THAT realization hurts even worse. And during the entire fiasco, I never once stopped to fully comprehend that the situation wasn't just hurting me...it was hurting her too. Filled with regret, but super hopeful for what future we might have as friends again.

On a much, much lighter topic... Another thing that's calling my attention and keeping me awake is my HUGE GINORMOUS EXCITING announcement. I'm consumed by it! My husband and I are just trying to get the timing down as to when to let the world know. I'm excited to blog about all these great changes. (:

Another thing that's kept me awake? My little man. James decided to have a bed time at 8:00 tonight, which is fine. The problem is he also decided that he wanted to be wide awake half hour later. I've been struggling with a routine to get him sleeping earlier at night, but he definitely has his own ideas...which is so James. He's had his own ideas from the day he decided he wanted to come earth-side. And I'm thinking that I'll have a fun day tomorrow with my bambino! I'm wanting to bake. I've been craving Rosemary Lemon Cookies (tutorial, anyone?) and tomorrow would be the perfect time to bake them! Overall, I'm just in a really thinky mood. We'll see how long it lasts...putting away the laptop MIGHT influence sleep to come faster. Signing off. (:

Opening a New Book

My life is crazy. It's hectic. I'm always busy with one thing or another. But my life? I love it. I wouldn't change one single day of it. I have the best best-friend of a husband who is absolutely my better half, a darling little man who just turned 7 months young on the 26th of February (did I mention he's darling?), I am completely passionate about my schooling to become a Midwife (I love LOVE L O V E it!)and in total honesty, my life is getting better and better. Blogging just seems like the perfect way to share all these little things with family and loved ones.

I've had quite the history with blogging...I tend to start one then stop it after four posts EXACTLY. I think it's some type of OCD that I am determined to overcome through this blog.

So, in addition to starting a blog to share daily experiences with family, my little family of 3 has some BIG changes coming our way. We aren't starting to read another chapter--we're opening an entirely new book and we're reading it together. We have some big announcements to make that are going to be bringing some pretty major changes to our family, and I'm going to document every minute of it (well, the minutes that I'm not chasing little James around or catching up on a chapter in my midwifery textbooks or cooking or cleaning...). We're excited and overwhelmed all at the same time, but we're feeling pretty positive about our adventure that we call "life." So, stay tuned as I ramble on and share what it's like to be a super average super mom. (: